okay now i write a post so that will not be so dead...
okay this few weeks happened a lot of things
firstly is i became older le:)
have receive a lot of present^^love it so much
and actually the things that i have dream for so long have finally realise
and i shall not say so much about it since its over now
but actually is quite sad that i have become older...
i really hope that i still can be a baby which will not think so much about the world
but i know that is impossible...so no need to think about it lerh
and anyway the other thing that i am quite sad is that right after my birthday is
COMMON TEST!!!!!
is so stress as that day i should relax one but in the end have to study for the test...
anyway after finishing all the test i can only say that
this paper some will do quite good
whereas some will do very badly
the good one will only be maths and poa(and the results come out is like that and chinese is also one of the miracle that i have done well which i didn't expected it)
and the bad ones will be chemistry,physic,english,geography and social studies...sobsobT.T
actually i already gave up le...
cause i am sure that i cant do well one...
anyway i remember got one of the night i dunno why i cry until very badly
that day have a quarrel with my brother and say something that i regret for very long to my mother
and i seriously find that i am so stupid...and everypeople say that i am giving myself too much stress
but i also don't want to give myself that much of stress one
is just that i will always remember about how others say that i am not the type who can study
i cannot go jc and university
i want to prove to them that i actually can but the road to jc and uni is so tough and hard
and indeed my studies is not really good i really want to prove to them but i am so tired abiut it cause now i am 心有余,而力不足....
i rally want to give up...
cause sometimes family members will see this knid of disheartenting things to me, say that i cant study, but sometimes say that is okay i have already done quite well le
is so confusing i don't know what should i do now should i strive hard? or give up?
but either way i think i will regret...
everything every words that i say now seems so stupid cause i seems like a girl who don't know much about the world...
but b=nevermind i will not say so much about the sad things
lets say some happy things:))
okay firstly i go and do my contact lens le and also have try to wear it le
seems so weird and ugly...
but nevermind this is only a try if really i am not suitable i will not wear it anymore
and i have finally see the movie kaiji^^
the movie is so nice and exciting but got some parts seems so scary
ut overall is nice and sorry to qingyang that i scare you...sorryT.T
and lastly this post is super long seah but nevermind cause i think maybe next post you will see is in june le...lol:)
